It was bizarre.

I had a strange dream last night.

So, Lily Allen hides tickets to her shows in places and then posts clues on Twitter or whatever for someone to find and then waits near the ticket for someone to find it and then, hurray they found it and can go to her show.

I had a dream that I found one of those tickets.

And then she and I were chilling out in Neville's room, which seemed slightly bigger than it is in reality. And then people came home and I was just chilling with Lily Allen and it was pretty fucking fantastic. And then my parents picked me up and I went home and I told them all about finding the ticket and hanging out with Lily and how the concert I had the ticket for was the day before I leave for Florida and it was in Connecticut somewhere and I was going to go even though I would be by myself because I only had one ticket and I was probably going to chill out with Lily after the show and how we were going to stay friends through Twitter.

And when we got home, my sister had this like rabbit-esque pet but it wasn't a rabbit. Two of them, actually. And, anyway, they had really big front teeth like rabbits and I was playing with them and one of them bit my hand and it was a really deep wound and my dad told me I had to burn it under burning hot water to catalyze the wound so that it would heal faster.

It was bizarre.

Be the One - The Ting Tings

You say it's not what you do

It's what you're thinking of.

Well, I think that's just an excuse

It's what you put across.

And I don't wanna be the one

Only overjoyed.

Yeah, I don't want to be the one

Making all the noise.

Yeah, I don't wanna be the one.

So make sure you're thinking it through.

You've let me down again.

Offer me something

I know you really meant.

'Cuz I don't wanna be the one

Only overjoyed.

Yeah, I don't wanna be the one

Making all the noise.

Yeah, I don't wanna be the one.

Hey!

What you gonna offer now?

I don't wanan be the one

Only overjoyed.

Yeah, I don't wanna be the one

Making all the noise.

Yeah, I don't wanna be the one.

What you gonna offer now?

What you gonna offer now?

What you gonna offer now?

This was not my idea.

Don't you keep me waiting.

This was not my idea.

Don't you keep me waiting.

This was not my idea.

Don't you keep me waiting.

I feel connected to this song right now.

I can't breathe.

I feel too confined.

I need to break out of the routine.

I need adventure.

I need spontaneity.

I need change.

I need a different outcome to my days.

I need a permanent holiday.

I need freedom.

I don't think I can put up with this structure any longer.

I can't breathe.

I need out. Now.

I don't know what to do.

It wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't trapped in this society in order to do what I want to do more than anything in the world.

PS - he just said "My mother is fucking impossible." I had to bite my tongue to not retort "So are you."

Impossible.

You are impossible.

You contradict everything you say with your actions and other words.

How am I supposed to keep up?

"I'm not going to become a meat head," you say, but you already are every time you act like an asshole.

And getting things done? There is some shit that needs figuring out, but you seem perfectly content to leave in on the back burner. Well, guess what? At some point, there won't be time left to figure shit out, because shit will be here.

It's really simple. Shelves. I think that we need some shelves in order to help us with space. I never said I wanted to cover the walls with shelves, why would you think that?

Saying that you want to check with the landlord to see if it's okay to put shelves up is a good way to put things off, isn't it? But it's legit enough that I have to go along with it.

Like, you do realize that I haven't fully moved in yet?

That I have other belongings that I would like to have with me?

And that those items do take up space?

Do you want me to continue living out of bags week to week?

Because I am sure I could find somewhere more spacious to live with someone less difficult than yourself where I could have my own room.

Especially if Drake does stay.

Thanks for dropping it on me that he might be so nonchalantly. That kind of changes the way I feel about things a great deal. I don't want to live with him. I have been putting up with it because I knew he'd be out soon. If he isn't, I don't know what I am going to do.

Still not looking to get a place, Alice?

I don't even know what to keep ranting about.

HE IS JUST FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE and there's nothing else to say on the matter but to continue going into detail about it, which I will spare you of.